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So today is the 4th Tuesday we have been in school. I am now a junior and havent posted in forever. I felt radiant today though, so I feel the need to share this with the world. I guess i just woke up on the right side of the bed this morning, but I think Ashlee Simpsons autobiography gets me pumped up. So in the morning Karolina said I looked cute, and I felt cute, and classes were short thanks to class officer elections. I spent most of my classes day dreaming off to some world where I was much happier, but then I remembered that today was a good day, so by Wexler, I fell asleep. It didn't matter though. I paid great attention in German and I think I now understand some of the grammer....

More interesting topics now. Boys. New prospect, maybe. Sophomore, really hott, but only 15. Molly and I talked it over and decided we dont know him well enough to make a decision or not, but i am trying to amend that.

BAD THING happened today though. Unintentionally though. I was walking into lunch with a scowl on my face cause Jeff Wagner through paper at me and I quickly glanced to the side (still glaring) and didnt realize who I saw until I turned away. Kevin Rodgers and I had glared at him and not said a word. :( Hope he doesnt think I hate him. But I dont think he likes me too much so oh well.

Blake and I are in another fight cause of no stupid reason and he won't answer the phone when I call. Argh. Fucking pisses me off. I mean I feel like he doenst respect me or even contribute to our friendship. Its like completely one sided minus the occasional times he'll pat my shoulder in the hall and tell me we need to hang out more. Other than that its him calling me complaining about how much school work he has when I told him last year that 3 and a half AP classes were too much to handle and still allow yourself a life. I wanted to talk to Chelsea at lunch but she wasnt there. We are becoming a lot closer. It's nice. I feel like for oncee out of the 4 or 5 years I have known her that we have really connected or something like that. Shes like me in the way that shes sort of down but up at the same time. I know you have no clue what I mean, but I do and thats all that matters.

OO. Just reminded me when he got online. That Chaka fellow. Def ruling him out. Talked to him yesterday about how I met his two friends (hott ones too) and he talked for a while but I dont think there is anything there, and Molls said she got to know him more and thinks he has certain asshole potential. His friends were cute though. Saw them at Starbucks a few weeks ago. This one guy Modechai: red hair, blue eyes (my type right) Israeli, but I cant really see us getting along. But his friend Daniel who was tall and kind of cute seemed really cool. Too bad Molly and our connection Zach dont have anything going on anymore.

Now I feel boy obsessed for talking about all this random stuff for 20 minutes so bye.